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Monday, 14 May 2012

  • "True love always has a habit of coming back".

    I just read this quote on this certain person's page and I've been reading parts of her blog, and I've come to conclude that she's a very fascinating person. Kind of like a rare gem, but not from the darkest corner or a mine: Rather, she's a precious jewel out of a cluster of other jewels.... It's hard to explain-well, it's like finding the perfect ring in a jewellery store and falling in-love with it-knowing there are hundreds of other jewellery around.

    I wonder from time to time whether if love ever returns once it leaves. And if love does return, is it better or is it worst or perhaps different? I don't know what I miss about falling in-love: Is it the possibility of having all your dreams and aspiration reflect off of another person? Or is it simply just being able to console your deepest fears and triumphs into another person, which make everything worthwhile? I miss it. I miss having butterflies in my stomach in the presence of the one I love. I miss thinking about the one I love during odd times of the day. I miss sharing my life with someone. And most of all, I miss missing the one I love during odd times of the day...

     

    to be continued...

Wednesday, 09 May 2012

  • Just got back from my sister in-laws birthday celebration-even though her birthday was last week, she works so much that we couldn't find time to fit in a birthday dinner for her until today. Funny thing though, there were a bunch of people and all the single guys managed to find a part of the table to sit together. lol...
    I'm a little intoxicated of course, consider how much I've started to drink again.. lol.. Overall, it was fun.. Sometimes when I see couples sitting together and being all mushy and stuff, I feel a little jealous or perhaps envious. I use to have that, but I never managed to cherish those moments until now. But let's just look at it this way, "maybe one relationship wasn't meant to work-out, so you would be available to accept the right relationship when it finally comes along." But it's kind of hard finding a girl in real-life when I'm always dreading over someone extravagant I met on-line.

Tuesday, 08 May 2012

  • People travel all over the worldin-search for that one thing/person which can make them feel complete, whilewhen that thing/person has always been right in-front of them.”

     

     Just as in thesaying, “you don’t know what you have until it’s gone,but you don’t know what you’ve been missing until it arrives.”Essentially, this quote is true, but what if you go through life never meeting that one person who makes you feel special? Or worst, what if you’ve already  met them and let them go without even knowing they were you’re other half? So sometimes I just think that life is full of the unexpected-you can expects omething to turn out a certain way, of course you can even do things and anticipate it to turn out the way you want it to, but there’s always that one chance it’s not going to be as you pleased. So a lot of times, people search for that one thing which can make them happy. They would travel to the depths of the ocean in search for it-to never realize it’s been right in-front of them all along or until it's too late. The things in-life which happen are all destined, it could be good or it could be bad, whatever you choose or how you choose to react to it, is based on your perception. Yet, simply accepting the notion that everything happens for a reason or that everything is destined, is tremendous tough. It’s one thing to have shit happen and it’s another thing to accept it with grace.For instance, I would’ve never in my life, ever would've anticipated my life to turn out the way it did. I never would’ve though, during my youth, my life would turn out the way it did: Especially the car accident. I never would’ve even think, in the most ostentatious dream,  my life would turn out the way it did. I always thought that when I reach this stage in my life, I would be settled or perhaps-at the least, content with everything. It’s so hard to accept life as it is… I worked so hard to get the kind of outcome or to get the opportunities that I’ve been given, but there were always some kind of obstacle in my way: Especially with everyone in my surrounding, I never would’ve thought I would’ve encountered this kind ofoutcome… It’s like.. My life is such a disappointment. I’m such adisappointment. No-matter how hard I try, no-matter what I do, no-matter, whatI achieve, the events in-life will eventually bring me back to step one. Afterthe car accident, I struggle for years to finally get into graduates studies, but because the teacher didn’t like me (because I had a long criminal record inmy younger years), he purposely failed me. Then a few years after, I managed to find a professional designation, but had to drop it because of my language barrier. And now… I have nothing to look forward to anymore. During the hardest times of my life, if I found someone who overlooked my exterior or the lack thereof, than I would embrace her and would do anything and everything to make her living as comfortable as it can get. Unfortunately though, I never found anyone. I never found anyone who would overlook my poverty, the obstacles I faced or the lack of stability in my life. I never found anyone who was willing to go through the trials and tribulations of life with me. All I found were people who say they would, but never managed to live up to their words...

Sunday, 06 May 2012

  • Biked in Stanley Park

    Biked in Stanley Park for about 3 hours today, but that's only becuase I couldn't remember where I parked my car... I haven't biked there for over 5 years so everythign was new to me. Along time ago, when I use to lived back east, I would roller blade everyday in the summer time for 45 mins (10-15 km) and it was good exercise. At first it was tiring, but I go use to it and it became an exercise... Today, I tried biking the whole Stanley Park, but wasn't able to... It's harder than it looks..

Thursday, 03 May 2012

  • OMG.. I'm so full.. Today was okay... I had a telephone job interview for a Managerial position today, but there was miscommunication and it was at the jewellery store and not a telephone job interview. Oh well, too bad soo sad... So as a result, I decided to apply for jobs back east.... You know, to broaden my horizons and increase my chances of finding a job... My uncle came over again today, but surprisingly he was gratious. He wasn't angry or upset or anything like that, he was just joyous with everyone.... I was planning to study tonight to enhance my finance and computer skills, but have gotten really tired from cleaning up, so I think I might just call it quits for the night.... my oh my... my life is full of drama...

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